Funnily enough, I was reading a book about dating I’ll share the name of the book in another post when I’m finished reading it and starting to put what I've learned into practice to test if it actually works or I’m guaranteed my money back. Actually that was the USP unique selling point. Yah! I remembered something from my marketing class back in university...seems like a long time ago (looking into space for a sec).
Anyway back to what I was saying. So I was up reading this book and something I read caught my attention and I immediately decided to pray to God about what I had read. It resonated with me so much and it has therefore inspired the title of this blog today. How random?
The section in the book that caught my attention was that it reminded me of something I had said to someone. I cannot remember for certain who I said it to, but I remember saying it. I believe I was explaining myself as to why I thought a certain way and I said ‘I know….’ At the time it didn’t feel right to say that I know, because I was basically saying I know everything, I’ve thought about everything.
But I stopped myself. I don’t know anything. There are things that I will definitely need to learn. There are people that I would need to meet in order to change certain things in my character because I've been alone (but not lonely) for so long.
It was like a slap in my face. It's as though God was using that situation to really make me think that up until now I’ve been wanting things my own way. I’ve been so focused on a specific order that I had blinded myself from seeing what God may have put before me but I was too busy with my ‘plan’ that I had somehow may have missed out on.
Since the book was about dating. I had to really humble myself before God and asked Him to forgive me for the way I had been thinking and for me wanting things the way that I want them and if it's not the way that I want them then that’s it. End of. How proud? But we thank God for Jesus and His unfailing love. The way He pursues us every day even when we don’t deserve anything from Him.
So whilst meditating on what the book had said. I thought about how sovereign God is, that He even numbered our days on the earth. That’s how much power He has. Did you know people used to live for over 900 years? Yes, you read that right! In this day and age that is impossible because the days are so evil, people’s hearts are evil and love is slowly leaving our vocabulary.
If you would like to read more about this you can find it in the Bible in Genesis in Chapters 5 & 6. God was like, ya'll wanna keep doing your thing and not acknowledge me for who I am so I’m going to reduce the amount of evil ya’ll doing in my face. They will not live long on the earth anymore.
I thought to myself, if we have a timeline to be on this earth then it would be so much better to obey the voice of God and trust that He’s in control of everything. I watch many crime documentaries and when the judge would say what the sentence is for the perpetrator sometimes its 170 years for example. And I would think to myself when you put a number on something it makes it more real.
Because there is no way he will live to do all those years in prison compared to a life sentence where the number of years is unknown. You just know he won’t come out of prison. He could be there for 1 night or for 50 years - we never know.
This made me realise that it’s time I let go of wanting things to be done my way. Because until I let go and let God then nothing will change. Until I stop saying I will change and then don’t put it in practice then nothing will change. So for the unknown number of time I have left on the earth, I pray that I will continue to be submissive to the voice of God and be held accountable for the things that I say I will do.
There are times in our lives when things will not go the way we want them to, but we have the confidence to know that tomorrow is another day and God knows what is best for us. Sometimes we don’t get what we want because we’re not prepared for it or simply we don’t believe it is possible because of our past mistakes.
So I am open for correction, I am willing to be wrong, I am willing to be open and I am willing to listen. If you realise that you have been stubborn to the voice of God or wanting things to be done on your terms then humble yourself before Him and He will give you the strength to trust Him and let it go.
Until next time.
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