Growing up as a loner you could say for lack of a better word. I spent a lot of time on my own which for me was taking my grandmother’s advice ringing in my ears growing up as a young girl back home.
'Bad company corrupts good habits’
That was the advice loud and clear. Staying away from bad company. So when I arrived here in England I didn’t have many friends and the ones I did have were friends of friends so I wasn’t connected to them necessarily. Nevertheless, if I could tell that someone was bad news or would encourage me to do something bad I would stay away from them. Even when they would invite me out I would say no, mind you I would really wanna go as well. But I knew I couldn’t trust them.
So I would spend most of my time at home as the only child in the house. I would go to the cinema by myself, I would go to the Library and I would read, read and read some more - it was my past time. Being able to read a story and you would feel as if you’re right there in the pages with the characters. I was just fascinated with the writer’s ability to create that within the reader was just amazing.
My time spent reading all those stories and books was creating another desire in me. I was exposed to new words and how they made me feel. I was exposed to the ability to create a need for the reader to take action. I was able to start painting pictures with my own words and shortly after that I was writing down my own thoughts and feelings.
With this new ability, I started writing. I started writing poems in my notebooks and diaries and was able to make sense of things when I write them down. There’s something amazing that happens when you’re able to put your thoughts down on paper and be able to reflect on what you’ve written. And if you don’t like what you wrote you can always cross it out or rip that page out and start all over again. Now imagine saying certain things to a close friend, your spouse, your colleague, or anyone close to you. Imagine the hurt, the pain you could cause with your words - spoken in the heat of the moment?
How many times we said something and wished we could take it back?
It was over 10 years ago that I really started sharing my writing abilities. I had just started attending my local youth group and I got really involved with the weekly activities back then. We would get weekly tasks to write a song, write a poem, write a play about a certain topic that may be affecting young people, etc. I was in my element. I loved writing and so I would write poems and remix certain songs and if I was on your team you would be glad because most of the time my material would win the task for the week.
I had taken a sad and lonely time in my life at the time and channeled it into something positive. I don't know what your struggles were when you were younger or maybe you're still struggling with something right now. Never allow it to take away your peace, you have greatness within you. I've learned that we all have a gift and a talent that cannot be replicated. You are unique.
So over the next few days, I will be sharing with you a few of the poems I had written under meditations of my heart as I’d titled it in my notebook. I’m hoping you will be able to relate and be inspired.
Until next time.
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